There’s one thing I have to say about living a female led lifestyle. It has made me a better husband. And a better man. It isn’t that I was a bad husband before our flr. We've always been close and very much in love. But as with most conventional marriages ego got in the way sometimes. We'd both want our way on something which would lead to an argument, even just a small one.
I still remember the night I begged my Wife to take me as Her slave. It was a very raw, emotional night. We'd always enjoyed a bit of kink in our marriage. Especially spanking. We actually met on a spanking chat site. At first we were both going to be switches and we would spank each other. Within a couple of weeks that turned into me taking 100% of the spankings. Which suited me as I'd always identified more as submissive. Plus She is a naturally dominant Woman. But She'd always balked at the idea of becoming a Mistress. She had the idea that She would have to become this whip-wielding dominatrix type barking orders at me all the time. The usual internet fantasy stuff. But this need to submit to Her fully was always in the back of my mind. It only grew stronger over time. So one night it all poured out of me and I managed to reassure Her that a lot of things would stay the same, that She wouldn't have to keep acting out a part. At first it worked great, but we kept hitting snags. The problem was with me. I haf a fear of giving up full control. I've always been service oriented, I do most of the housework, I make Her meals, I do things for Her on a daily basis. And She has always appreciated that. So I have always had a slave mentality. That wasn't the problem. I can be impatient sometimes, and if I want something I want it right away, whether it's being a book or a cd or whatever. I think that's where I was afraid to give up control. We hit some false starts and I would end up backing away from submitting to Her fully, even though it was my hearts desire. I know my Wife got frustrated with me and I would get frustrated with myself.
A while ago I discovered the term female-led relationship. It basically refers to the domestic relationship and is for the most part kink free. The woman simply takes as much control in the marriage as she wants and needs. I am aware I am better when I'm submissive. I'm more attentive, more romantic. I persuaded Her to give it one more try. I think we've hit the right balance now. I'm comfortable and confident in giving Her full control. She is finally seeing that it's sticking this time, I'm much better than I used to be. I still get impatient sometimes but I'm learning to control that better with Her help/
I am so much more attentive now, more attuned to Her needs. We’ve always been close, but we have a closeness now and a level of intimacy that we never had before. We are more connected, and happier than ever. It's an amazing feeling and I never want to lose it.
I told my Wife the other day I don't think She even realizes how much power She really has over me. We're starting to explore boundaries now and She's beginning to push me more, which I love. We're starting to experiment a little with orgasm control. I have noticed that after I cum for several hours I'm maybe not quite as attentive as usual. It takes me a day or two to get back to that level of attentiveness. But when a couple of days have gone by without me orgasming I am much more attentive and submissive. I have a feeling She's going to be more controlling in that department in the coming weeks. She has expressed no interest in chastity. I'm aware of the alleged benefits of being locked up. I've read blogs on the subject. My Wife prefers the honor system, and who am I to argue with Her. To be honest, the idea of being locked in a chastity device scares me a little, but if She ever decided She wanted to give it a try I wouldn't try to fight Her about it. I can't. I promised to obey Her in all things and I won't fall back on that again. Ever. She tells me I can't cum and Se trusts me to obey Her. So far I've managed that. Sometimes I would like Her to explore Her crueler side and I have hinted at that, letting Her know I would be fine with that. But I won't push. I'll just keep obeying Her every instruction, keep adoring Her and letting Her confidence build.
There’s more harmony in our marriage. We pretty much never argue and in the case where once there might have been a conflict I now defer to Her decision. When it comes to major life choices She wants my input and my opinion but we are agreed that the ultimate choice is Hers. The thing I love about being married to my Wife is She doesn't get crazy ideas and She would never do anything that would harm me physically or emotionally. So I can truly submit to Her and give Her total control with 100% trust. Which is why I wonder why I had such a hard time getting to this point. and our sex life is hotter with Her in control. I would never want to go back. We're really still learning about this relationship. In a way it has only just begun and I'm excited to see how our FLR will evolve over the coming months and years. I will share all that my Wife allows me to share on this blog. It's going to be an interesting ride.
A female-led life may not be for everyone. But for us it’s a perfect fit.
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