It’s day four since my heart to heart talk with my Wife led to Her becoming my Mistress. So far the transition is going smooth enough.
So this blog is now a journal of my life as a slave. I’ve read plenty of blogs on this site. Most of them relate to female subs and male Doms. In some circles that seems to be the accepted norm. But I know there are a lot of male subs and slaves out there as well as a lot of female Dominants. So I hope my blog goes some way to address the balance a little and to show life on the other side of the coin.
I had broached the subject in the past of my becoming Her slave, but Mistress always balked at the idea. She wasn’t comfortable with the thought of being Dominant at all times. It’s not that She can’t be strict. She has shown when it comes to spanking me She won’t hesitate to beat me hard when She thinks I need it. But I think She had the notion that She would always have to be strict and in control, always barking out orders, and we would have no time to just be husband and Wife. I tried a different tack, suggesting we use a Domestic Discipline agreement. I even wrote up a contract of sorts giving Her full control of my bottom and agreeing that She could use DD to address any issues that were bothering Her. This especially related to my health issues. I’m a type two diabetic and I don’t always eat the way I should. This would work for a few days, but in the end it always tailed off. So we carried on as we were. A husband getting spanked by his Wife whenever She felt like it. I was happy enough, but in my heart I always craved something more. I would often top from the bottom and I know it used to drive Her nuts.
Lately we’ve been niggling at each other a lot, especially related to a business venture we are both on. I admit I don’t take it seriously enough. As I wrote in another blog, I have a lazy personality and left to my own devices will often take the simplest approach. I need structure and routine. As I outlined in an earlier blog, a few nights ago, I sat down and had a serious heart to heart with my Mistress. All my barriers came down and it all poured out what I needed our relationship to be. She listened and She heard and now She is finally ready to take Her place as my Mistress. She now seems to relish the role. She realises She doesn’t have to be controlling every single minute. We still get to have our loving couple time.
I’ve always enjoyed doing things for Her whether it be cooking or simply fetching something for Her. I would often half joking but half serious say “here you are, Mistress.”
I also love to be naked. In fact I live naked at home. Whenever we get home from anywhere, the first thing I do is strip. She seems to appreciate this too. The fact that She is usually clothed while I’m naked makes it more exciting, increasing my sense of exposure as well as my submissiveness.
My heart soars just to think that I am now Her willing slave. I feel more relaxed and content than I’ve felt in quite a while. I also feel we’re connecting again as a couple. We’re having more intimate moments and I am more attentive and loving toward Her.
Last night we were out with friends. I have a pretty jokey personality and love to tease Her. She has a great sense of humour and allows me some leeway on this. But I guess I got a little carried away last night, carrying on with the jokes even after She gave me warning signs that I should ease up. Nothing bad and certainly nothing disrespectful. We talked it over this morning and I think I might have been subconciously testing Her. As I said, the Domestic Discipline agreement kept falling apart and I guess there’s a part of me that is still afraid this arrangement will too. The signs are encouraging though. This morning She put me over Her lap and gave me a spanking with our short handled bathbrush. Nothing severe because as I said, I said nothing disrespectful. It was more a reminder to be aware of when I cross a line and to respect that. It stung enough to make me wriggle, but that was it. It was the perfect response to last night and it reassures me that She really is in it for the long haul.
The best sign is when we agreed to this on Monday night, the agreement was this would be for a time, a few weeks or months or however long it took to turn our business around. Now I’m suggesting that we could make this permanent and She seems to be agreeing. My heart could sing with happiness right now!
She has introduced me to what She calls my daily wake up. A short quiz about aspects of our business, while I’m bent over the bed. Correct answers get mild strokes of the paddle, while wrong answers are greeted with a hard stinging stroke. I enjoy this too and take it also as Her asserting Her control over me and reminding me before we start each day of who is in control. I love this and long may it continue. I’ve always loved my Wife but I absolutely adore my Mistress!
I feel a sense of fullfilment. A sense of being where I should be and of being WHO I should be.
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